hello darkness, my old friend

dear sam,

i'm writing this to tell you about a horrible dream i had last night, and i'm writing this on a blog instead of actually telling you about it because i don't actuallly want to talk about it to anyone. the dream began with me wandering the streets, i think i was with someone, and i soon noticed there was someone following us. so we ran very fast and down random streets (i think it was supposed to be some part of levittown because i remember thinking "we're going to get lost because levittown is so complicated"). we somehow knew that the people following us (there were now 2, the guy's sister, i don't know how i knew that) were in a gang, so i thought it would be the best thing to go into the rival gang's area so they wouldn't follow us. they did. the area was marked off oddly. it seemed kind of enclosed, like there was dense trees all around it. the entrance was a clear tarp that looked old and had some graffiti on it. as soon as i stepped in the leader of the gang showed up and said something like, "thanks for bringing these ones in." i turned around and realised he was talking to the guy that followed me there, who was now behind me. i instantly knew this was some sort of trafficking ring that i was just pulled into. i was taken to a room, white and bright with natural light. i saw this girl kelly i know, and it seemed like she was there for awhile because she was not really in her right mind. then i saw celine who was for some reason happy to be there and was on her blackberry. i was then in a basement sitting on the floor in a makeshift bed. i thought i'd look for my phone since celine had hers. oddly enough, i found it and even in the dream i was thinking how stupid these people were for not taking my phone. i started texting you about what had happened to me. but then i started waking up a little? i'm not sure what really happened, but i was in and out of being awake and dreaming (still texting you), crying hysterically. when i was fully awake and still crying i thought what i dreamed was real, and was about to call you. i was so, so scared. but i realised it was a dream and didn't. i've been having a lot of trouble lately telling dreams and reality apart.

love,
kaity



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